2008-07-24 14:44:56
this is for real, isn't it? :)
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The Riedel Swan Wine Decanter.
Beautiful isn't she? Found at amazon.
In my list of wants :) i can see it in my future kitchen.
ok, don't mind me. am crazy this way.

...

So, I watched Red Cliff.
Didn't expect to watch it, but I did, and it was - quite amusing.
Of course, I was always slightly infatuated with Takeshi Kaneshiro -
so that was the grabber.
His eyes. How they twinkle. :) blink, blink, blink.

This cannot be a spoiler (i have friends who haven't yet watched) so
I won't say anything more.
Since I never was got into the "tele-novela" culture, subtitles
warped my viewing pleasure for the first 15 minutes
and then i got the kick of speed-reading just so i could watch more
of Takeshi. haha.

When did i start liking pretty boys?
I always thought that i liked very man-men.
Hmm... oh who knows anymore!

...

Am flying to my escape this weekend.
But, I haven't bought tickets, yet.
Truth be told - I don't know where I wanna go - for sure.
Shh. Don't tell anyone. I don't have a plan. Hee hee. That's me.
So exciting. No plans. Just a passport. 5 days.
For all i know, I would end up spending all 5 days with my parents.
And that would be great too! :)

or...
I could beach, then Manila.
Yes, alone.
ALONE.
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA.


...

Caramel-coated dreams.
I want to beach and watch the sun rise.
The rain has gotten to me. I feel a little out of it.
I should be thinking about the rush jobs sitting on my desk.
But am home tonight.
My private time.
People ask me, "But don't you live alone - how can you not have alone
time?"
Cause i hardly am alone. Seriously.

Nic, a friend, was telling me one time - that am lucky this way.
Well, considering everything above all this - i am.

...

I know a guy, who, surprisingly - would do so much to be with me.
I say "surprisingly" for the simple fact that I never thought - never
in my life thought
that he would even bother to acknowledge my existence. Life's pretty
funny. Shocking.

But I've been screwed-up with love, romance, or anything remotely
associated with
intimate relationships. As you probably would know. And now, to have
even a hint of "something"
makes me question everything. So... I shrug my shoulders and look
around at the crowd asking myself
- is this really happening to me? Is this real or is this like some
seriously damaging hallucination?
Do i need a shrink for this? Hahaha. Actually, i know this is pretty
much for real.
And am petrified.