still listening to Chris Cendana
at Youtube.
I LOVE YOU CHRIS!!!
(gawd, how old am i? 12?!)
alternating with BabyFace
(ancient! but let me regress for a little)
...
its juice running out
i plugged in my iPhone to my office
workstation and it decides by itself
to upload my entire photo-album :P
me and looking for signs,
found this
image.
taken weeks ago.
a screen shot of my phone's face.
there was a message
which i refused to open for DAYS.
so, the red dot with 1 on it.
this, accidentally taken as i tried
to call my brother
after sleeping for days in my bed
refusing to talk to anyone.
eat, feel, think or anything.
and when i tried to get up
my legs buckled beneath me.
and i couldn't get myself to even panic.
i thought to myself...
how can one person
cause me this much despair?
...
the sign,
i think says: see you've moved on somehow :)
you're ok now.
a reminder that am not that strong.
a reminder that there are things beyond hope.
a reminder that there are bad in people as much
as there is good in them.
a reminder that there are greater forces than love.
a reminder that am never really in control.
a reminder that i am a mere mortal.
a sad reminder that my will, faith and trust is not enough
to fix anything.
a reminder that we all heal.
a reminder that am quite alone in all of this.
a reminder that life goes on.
a reminder that no matter what you feel,
this is only true to you.
a reminder that there are things to look forward to.
a reminder that i can choose to stop.
a reminder that there's something better coming
my way.
at Youtube.
I LOVE YOU CHRIS!!!
(gawd, how old am i? 12?!)
alternating with BabyFace
(ancient! but let me regress for a little)
...
its juice running out
i plugged in my iPhone to my office
workstation and it decides by itself
to upload my entire photo-album :P
me and looking for signs,
found this
image.
taken weeks ago.
a screen shot of my phone's face.
there was a message
which i refused to open for DAYS.
so, the red dot with 1 on it.
this, accidentally taken as i tried
to call my brother
after sleeping for days in my bed
refusing to talk to anyone.
eat, feel, think or anything.
and when i tried to get up
my legs buckled beneath me.
and i couldn't get myself to even panic.
i thought to myself...
how can one person
cause me this much despair?
...
the sign,
i think says: see you've moved on somehow :)
you're ok now.
a reminder that am not that strong.
a reminder that there are things beyond hope.
a reminder that there are bad in people as much
as there is good in them.
a reminder that there are greater forces than love.
a reminder that am never really in control.
a reminder that i am a mere mortal.
a sad reminder that my will, faith and trust is not enough
to fix anything.
a reminder that we all heal.
a reminder that am quite alone in all of this.
a reminder that life goes on.
a reminder that no matter what you feel,
this is only true to you.
a reminder that there are things to look forward to.
a reminder that i can choose to stop.
a reminder that there's something better coming
my way.