I wrote this really long passage that was lost so I recap with simply this:

Today was a magical day. I got to spend the day with someone I love dearly doing something I am passionate about. I made a huge mistake by taking on the blame for something and I could not get beyond the downward spiral I made for myself. In the end, I made an assumption that was so off base that I ended up disappointing the one person whom I alway, always wish to be there for.

I feel ashamed. Forgive me Cathy...