~Maipe

I know you'll come to love me...I'm one of those things..those passions that takes time to get used to...but don't worry, you will.

After so long, I've returned, looking as I should, thank to the Lovely Annie and her companions....

Lugi loves me...as I always knew she did..but she says it even more now, and shows it in so many ways...
Inculding carrying me carfully in her arms during most of our trip to a convention to meet others.
The newest boy, Maipe has arrived as well...he is quite the character...however, Bu doesn't seem to like him very much. It worries me if his god mother will get involved in this...
Apprently Lugi is pining for another boy I don't know...but he seems quiet..and non-intrusive...I don't know if he'll come home..maybe he'll speak to me then...

Anghel~

Lugi has finally sent me off to Australia to spend time with Annie and her charges. I'm excited and nervous...I wonder what they'll think of me. I know Sava is anxious..he can't wait to be with his lover...Ireth...*sigh*

Bu has been in pieces for some time...and Gut is spending his time playing with Luke Alan, Hanbyul's...err..well..one of his boyfriends...

Lugi has also recently purchansed a new member of our family...a MNF Shiwoo by the name of Maipe Guifi...he seems like quite the character, from what I've heard...but he is in California with a friend, being painted...and vacationing..Lugi is a mess...poor girl..I wish I could hug her..but I'll be home soon...hopefully.

I never would have thought this moment would come...but my lovely girl has worked so hard to reach this point...two jobs...good grades, patience and resistance has led to this.

I am coming home.

*smiles*

I'm coming home...and everyone is waiting for me with open arms and loving hearts.....*deep breath*

I don't think anything could make me come down from here....I've been chasing this cloud with a net for so long, and now its finally mine to ride...

Wow...it's been a long time since I last updated here...I was only reminded of the thing by my dear friend Josuke. ^__^

hum..what's new with me...Lugi finally has a job, but she can't start working till she fills out these papers and things. Bu is doing well and enjoyed a lovely Christmas with Gutterbear, his pet cat. Even I have gifts set aside, waiting for me. I'm terribly excited.

I've never felt so loved in so long. I have so many to turn to when I need them. Though, some of them are so much more different then I ever imagined that it frightens me. So badly sometimes that I can barely keep my own demons from coming through, and those of the ones around me.
I try, I really do. But sometimes...I'm just so tired...all I can do is fall back and let-

Me take over. Because you're just such a sweet boy...you always come back to the arms you know when you can't do it anymore. *grins*

.....*shivers* I don't want to be alone in this anymore...I don't think my heart can deal with it...

How are things everyone?

I constantly question if people are really reading this, and I know it just must be my nature to be insecure. For people have told me that they read this entries. But I guess I just constantly need some form of reassurance so I know its true.
I am very excited, for it is finally summer time. This means that my dear Lugi will have time to try and earn more money for my arrival. I hope I can come home before she starts school again. That would be lovely......simply a dream come true....I long to feel again...I guess I know how Sava feels now....

and yet sympathy is still beyond me...

Hanbyul will be accompanying Lugi to a convention this summer, where upon he shall get to meet our dear Kronen and Maynard in person. I am very happy for him. I only wish I could go too.....I long to hug kronen for real...

If some of you are curious as to this Sava person that i keep refering too, all your questions will be answered in my next post. I shall finally disclose the life of the white haired boy to you.

Not too long ago I recieved a letter from my tutor in Romania. He is not from my country, but rather from a mysterious background he goes through great pains to conceal from me. The letter stated that he planned to join me and Tobias in our home in the united states, by request of my great aunt so that I may continue my studies......like I need that right now...*sigh*

I believe that is all for now. I'm my usual melencholy self. But do not worry for me. This is quite normal, just ask Bu. ^___^;;

Good day to you all, my friends.

Oh how we love the flowers.....

Hmm...things have evened out a bit I think. I stll haven't gotten a chance to Hijack Bu's live journal, but I don't really care anymore. Lugi has been suffering too much uneeded stress on my behalf. She has been trying all sorts of things to get the money to buy my body. At the moment she is upset because she can't think of a story. She needs to write a story, about an ipod in order to win an ipod. Then she plans to sell it and use the money towards getting my shell.
I feel horrible.
I don't like being the cause of such...heartache...and its even worse cause I know she does it out of love and not so much a need to just have a "doll". Hanbyul doesn't tease me as much anymore, and seems to be pining for my body as much as she is. I knew he would get lonely after a while. I knew it wouldn't take long.
For being the prince of a feirce Spider elf clan, he is quite the softie. *chuckles*
She is trying her best not to spend too much money on me, for she isn't sure how this whole ipod business will play out. If she loses....she will most likely get over it by buying something for me or Bu....though I wish she wouldn't get anything more for me....it just makes it harder for her...*sigh* I feel responsible....maybe I should have never asked for a body....maybe...I should never have even looked when she first found the web site....Though its too late to turn back now...she is in too deep...poor girl...I wish her the best....with all my love. Once she does get my body, she will find she has never known a more loyal and loving friend.
Its the least I can do.

(Bu is reading my letters to him....in the journal I gave him before he left...)

Anghel~

Hanbyul has arrived as you can tell by the previous entry, and his....rather....constant posting on his own personal live journal. I have been feeling a little better recently. Not too much however, due to the fact that I am still bodyless and will remain so for quite some time. And that Bu refuses to let me post on his Live journal....makes me mad...and Lugi lets him get away with it. But we shall see....The next time he ventures close to the computer I shall force Lugi to type me an entry so people know I still exist....because I fear not to many people read this anymore now that Bu has a body and an LJ.....damnit...ok, I guess I am not feeling any better huh?
Ha....oh well...little I can do about that....

Lets see....what else is new...ah yes...Lugi just reminded me....my...growing affections for a certain someone...I don't know where it came from. Maybe thier kindness and constant concern for me. Or the fact that they are always willing to talk and help take care of me and Bu.....I truely don't know....but I guess I should tell them sometime soon...because I know they have feelings for me, but it just makes me feel nervous....and cold....I fear what Sava may do if I confess anything other than hate or contempt...

I'm also happy to annouce the arrival of a friend of mine, Lai. Quite a few of my friends have been getting thier bodies, or new things. I'm and truely happy for all of them, even if it makes my heart ache a little....I don't know why I desire to be in the physical world so badly, but...I just want to feel....you know? I want to feel wind and the touch of an embrace. I want to have the sensation of someone running thier fingers through my hair.....holding my hand....anything....anything....pain would be better than this....

I can't think of anything else........I shall try and post here more often....I'm sorry everyone.

(p.s Vyctor told me that Hanbyul spoke to him of me. And that he cried, because he missed me.....Its nice to know I am loved....)

~Hanbyul

^_______________^
I got my body. I'm so happy. It came last night, and all my friends threw my a Happy Body Day party with cake and everything. And then today Mamon and my godmother took me to meet a bunch of other people like me. It was awesome. But I wasn't dressed my best, and I'm mad at Mamon for that. T___T Angie is still mopeing around, I think once she gets a job and really starts saving up for his body he will feel better. I'm just so glad I can try on clothes and pose and do things now. It feels good. I'm tired, and had a long day.
Good nightz.

~Anghel

hmm...I've been feeling slightly...\"moody\" lately...if that is the right word for it...I don't know what its about. We found out recently that Bu's body will be here by next Monday. Of course he is bouncing off the walls....I suppose I'm happy for him....but...I'm a little worried for myself.
Lugi has been back and forth alot lately on who she should get next after Bu. It was supposed to be me, and the Tobias whenever she could get her hands on his head. But then this other fellow popped up....then she was thinking about suddenly pushing me back and getting him first....Not that I'm going to argue with her but...it hurt a little....but now she seems pretty decided on getting my body first.
And yet I still don't feel happy. Is something else wrong? Am I home sick? Do I miss Tobi? Even Sava perhaps? I doubt it....but something just isn't settling right with me....we shall see once Bu comes home...we shall see...
Until then, my friends.